
There
are no fixed rules, and I don't always do it this way,
but I usually begin a drawing by laying out a selection
of fifty or more colorful scraps—whatever appeals
to me at that very moment—from boxes of hundreds of fragments
of patterned fabric, cut out before & during work
on each drawing, each scrap with fusible, an archival
heat-sensitive adhesive, attached to its back. It takes
hours or even days of manipulating the scraps to rough
out a figure or figures or partial figures or a head.
Sometimes I have to dig back into my boxes of scraps
and find more. When I've taken the figure or figures
or head as far as I can and it still interests me, I
choose a fabric from among my many boxes of fabrics,
variously catagorized, to use as a ground. The ground
itself may need substantial changes as work on the drawing
progresses. To provide weight & substance for all
the sewing to come, I fasten fusible to back of the ground
fabric and attach it to raw canvas. Then I position and
fuse the roughed-out imagery to the fabric-canvas ground.
At this point and even immediately afterwards, when I
sew around each scrap to hold it in place so that I can
wad it up to fit under the sewing machine without its
falling off, my drawings could be regarded as pure
collage.
But this is only the beginning of a long process of
sewing-into. Sewing/drawing is the essential transformative
agent, an uncanny truth-teller. I stitch into the scraps
and the ground with a Consew 2033R industrial zig-zag
sewing machine, using free-motion embroidery to draw
lines and lay in areas of solid or scumbled color. By
this means alone, I create transitions, unify disparate
elements, carve out space, model form, and otherwise
meld the variously patterned parts into a compelling
whole.
I sew for about an hour at a time. For every hour I
sew, I spend two more on "housekeeping," that
is, dealing with the tangled mess that sewing generates.
This means that I must spend twelve hours in the studio
to get in four hours of sewing. The process is labor-intensive,
but it makes things happen.
Because I make decisions on the fly, my eyes in shatterproof
close-work glasses six inches from the needle, I start
and stop sewing many times during an hour. I sew a little,
cut the threads, look at what I've done, sew a little
more, cut the threads, sew some more, stop and look again,
cut the threads, change thread color and possibly also
bobbin color, resume sewing, and so on. Each separate
sewn passage has a long thread at the beginning and another
hanging off the end of it, as well as a set of bobbin
threads on the back of the work. After an hour of sewing,
so many threads are hanging off the surface of the drawing
that I can no longer see what I am doing and have to
stop sewing. It takes about an hour, using a needle,
forceps, and jeweler's pliers, to draw the threads back
one by one. It takes another hour, again using forceps,
to tie the threads off and then to trim the excess with
thread snips. Drawing the threads back and tying them
off is contemplative time for me.
Things have to be neat front and back because I never know
when revisions will require the undoing of large or small
parts of a drawing. I can't pick out the stitches if I
don't know where they are. A major reason that it takes
me so long to make a drawing is that I don't know what
it's going to look like until it is well under way, and
even then, there are surprises until the close to the end.
At best, I begin with a rough approximation and grope sideways
towards a dimly sensed resolution, but I rarely know even
that much. All I have to know is what I will do next. The
process does all the heavy lifting. I don't have to imagine
anything, just pay attention to what is happening under
my hands and respond to it. |